the director in my play ...

I know the theory and the drill. But what i cannot let go is my obstinate self. it is like throwing an egg into a stone. But since it has always been my own play, I must then scripted the ending and enjoyed it like a spectator. I feel so sad whenever I thought about this play. Initially, hope is the key message at the closing scene but what the audience really want is a sad finale. the audience is turning away from my theatre, not waiting for the conclusion anymore but no matter the urgency, I just cannot pen it... I cannot. You may say, alot of things are not based on how i feel and think. The truth is so brutal to me, it is totally... since it has always been my play, I have to end it somehow. But i am not really to leave the theatre yet, the worst is seeing expressionless and emotionless audience. Someone please save me from this heartache ...