my love destiny ... lost and yet to be found

i finally understood why when i chose emptiness to be the brighter lass, people thought that i am at the bottom in the well of depression. the explaination was that, it seemed that then, i have a very void soul. perhaps, i have misunderstood myself. perhaps, i have been too locked up in my cell of solitude.

i know what i need all along, unknown to the world around me. a soulmate who can introduce a down- to-earth theory in my life and make me a partical person. but when i think of the fact that, not all lonely people in the world finds someone eventually. especially, when i have to coax myself into embracing solitude a little more each time after my every unsuccessful attempts ... my wick of hope just fluttered and weakened. i am lousy at capturing hearts and i don't think that i can ever learn the art as well ... maybe some day my prince charming will turn up and then tells me that he has lost his way, but until then, my love destiny is in my denial of the void that i constantly feel.